Hello Sweet Ones!
How is January shaping up for you? It’s flying by for me and I am still in the excitement of the new year and all it has planned for me. Tomorrow I leave for Buenos Aires, Argentina for a week! Gift from a friend and client. I am so loved and I am so grateful! Thank you God! And those of you who follow this blog religiously are probably asking if I have packed yet given that you know I do not care much for the whole packing thing. Nope! No surprise, right? Ha! I intend not to stay up all night this time. I’m going to start this year off right and pack before midnight and some in the morning. There is always time for all things important.
While I was in New Jersey in December, I did a few in-person sessions with new clients. One of these precious souls was the mother of a current client. What a sweetheart Ellie was! A tiny woman with the biggest heart and the most radiant smile. Little did I know she was also a talented poet. After our session, she was moved and inspired to write the poem I share with you below.
A dark cloud on my shoulder
A pain so hard to bare
Why couldn’t I move past it
Mom’s gone so many years
I was not always there for you
Your life filled with despair
Do you know I truly love you
Do you know how much I care
The guilt, so overwhelming
My heart feels it will break
If only I could change the past
What difference would it make
Do you know I’ve come to understand
You did the best you could
Mom if you would send a sign
Oh how I wish you would
I need to know if you’re at peace
Has your pain finally gone
I pray that you forgive me
There’s so much I should have done
With help I’ve come to realize
it’s time to let this go.
No need, no need for all this pain
I can feel you now; and so
The cloud has finally lifted
I see rainbows up above
The guilt no more a part of me
I’ve finally let it go
Mom I see that you’re now at peace
Yellow roses all around
Your beauty overwhelms me
You were lost and now you’re found
by Ellie Moskowitz
Beautiful isn’t it? The story of pain and release…the act of finally letting go.
It is common for us to hold on to issues long after a loved one has passed. We hold on to the guilt that somehow we did not do enough. That creates tremendous suffering beyond the actual loss of the loved one.
I felt this way after my father passed in 1995. I was in graduate school at the time and felt SO guilty that I did not visit him enough while he was ill. I was gratefully present when he passed, but I held on to the guilt of feeling like a “bad” and “selfish” daughter for not having been there for him more often. Years later I had a “reading” with an intuitive medium who connected with my father and let me know he always understood and was in no way disappointed with me. The relief and peace I felt was tremendous!
Well, this is what happened for Ellie in our session. Her mother came through and Ellie received a beautiful gift of peace and was able to truly “let go.”
Thank you, Ellie, for letting me share your gift of poetic expression.
May her words help you “let go” of a loved one who has passed and know that in Spirit, we are all forgiven and only love exists.